September 2021

I had a bunch of different ideas for my grand return to the blog-world which I will save for another time.

So the past five months have been weird. For the first time in my life, I had a stark realization that I am indeed getting older and change happens slow and fast.

As the leaves change and the autumnal equinox approaches, there is a sadness that summer is over and you have to get back to the real world… and all it’s problems which this year seem insurmountable.

The weird that happened over the last five months have been filled with constant feelings of inadequacy, despair that we will never be through this pandemic, and an overwhelming sense of dread about it eventually being “normal” again.

It’s only Tuesday as I write this and I’ve been on the verge of tears in multiple meetings this week and for no good reason. Well for one good reason, the world is re-opening too fast, too soon, and I, personally, am very overwhelmed with the whole process.

Due to this whole global pandemic, I’m overwhelmed in the United States and not whelmed in Europe. The amount of self-care that is going to crammed into this upcoming weekend is going to be ridiculous. All to undone by the next week, a vicious cycle.

The eternal search for the balance among one’s personal, professional, and pampered lives continues. Stay tuned.